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    When, in a drinking session, someone suddenly tells you, “your naivete is what I love the most about you” it makes you stop and think. Especially when you’ve been, of late, trying to pass yourself off to those who don’t know better as a world-wise twenty-something sophisticate, right at home in a generation that thinks cynicism is chic. So I’m naïve. I believe in being part of a struggle much bigger than yourself; daring to reach for a heaven far beyond your grasp; doing your part to assuage wounds wrought by many lifetimes of strife and knowing that it will take double that number of lifetimes to completely heal. I can look every bully in the eye and I know I will not flinch. Very few things threaten me – probably more the result of the brashness of youth than the wisdom of years. I think the best kind of job is not the job that gets you a fat paycheck or gives you generous car plan. It’s the job that makes you sleep well at night and eager to get up the next day. I love knowing that I’m working with the good guys – and drinking with them later at night. I believe that the fire in my belly can quell the butterflies in my tummy, and that my phantoms are no match for my passions. I maintain that the Left is right (but also that social justice is impossible without procedural due process). I believe in love, purely and utterly: insisting on it, finding it, keeping it, allowing yourself to be swept off your feet by the violence of its current but at the same time rocked to gentle sleep in the constancy of its embrace. I believe in the certainty and constancy of my friendships. I believe I’m fabulous and beautiful, and if you don’t agree with me, that’s because you’re wrong. I would say I believe in a Higher Being that holds everything together, and allows us to find that glint of light amidst hunger and cancer and injustice and oppression —- But then, that’s not naivete anymore. That’s faith.
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Archive for December 27th, 2007

No more nagging

Posted by Jae on December 27, 2007

One of my New Year’s resolutions — care of Dianne, last night – is to stop nagging.

 Well, to begin with, makulit talaga akong tao. And easily excitable over small but happy things. Like last night, kinukulit ko yung tatlo kong friends na pumunta sa Uncle Tat’s kasi bitbit ko na mga regalo nila at eggcited na ako ibigay sa kanila. Syempre gusto ko din sila makita. Especially si Gus. Naka-save na ata sa message template ko ang “Analog kami, Gus”.  Kasi naman, sa Ortigas pa ang office ng sosyaling bakla habang kaming lahat ay taga Village.  Pero in fernez, pag gabing gabi na at naisipan naming uminom na kaming dalawa lang, magkikita kami sa Quattro at magtatawanan forever and a day.

Pero makulit din ako sa work. And I suppose on regular days, that’s a good thing. Pero sabi ni Dianne kagabi, wala daw akong paggalang sa pasko.  Like kahapon, nagtext sa akin yung isang PO ng forwarded christmas message na “today i pray for this hungry land…chenes chenes..so we can find hope… chenes chenes… merry christmas) e halos inaraw-araw ko ang pangungulit sa kanya the past weeks para makuha ang transcript na kailangan namin sa hearing sa January 8, walang sagot ang lolo mo. So nung nagtext sya ng hungry land ek ek, nireply-an ko agad ng “hooooy, lalong di matatapos ang hunger kung matalo tayo sa kaso natin. i-LBC na ang transcript, NOW NA.” Ayun, success naman, mukhang makukuha ko ngayong araw na ito ang transcript. Tapos, masigasig din ako nangungulit sa Visayas at Mindanao friends para sa RP-China. Tapos, nagseset-set ako ng mga meeting meeting for the first week of January.

Kinwento ko kay Dianne ito kagabi, fully expecting her to side with me. “Hindi naman tumitigil ang problema ng mundo dahil nagpasko” sabi ko sa kanya. Ang reply niya, “pero sana isang araw man lang sa isang taon, wag mo silang bagabagin ng problema ng mundo at hayaan mo silang magdiwang.”

May point. Naguilty naman ako. O siya sige, hindi ako mangungulit ng tao mula ngayon hanggang January 2, 2008. Wala kayong makukuhang email or text sa akin except “i dream of hope for this hungry land, love for our weary souls…chenes chenes…shpluk shpluk shpluk… happy new year. isang tagay sa 2008.” Promise yan. Masabugan man ako ng Judas Belt.

And speaking of Dianne, basahin niyo latest blog entry niya dito. Tungkol sa LOVE. (all caps pa talaga.. parang “uy, love daw, waw! sige, ma-click nga!! now na! cant wait!”)

Labo. Antok pa ako. Kakagising ko lang. Sarap ng MSG nudols kagabi sa Kowloon after ng Uncle Tat’s. Pagsumisinok ako, natitikman ko pa. Yum.

Haha. ang seksi ko talaga.

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