Posted by: Jae | March 5, 2008

Jae Song

A string of let-downs and disappointments made me go to the UP Chapel during lunch yesterday. I was in the vicinity anyway, and I really needed to go some place to calm a heart that felt like it was bursting with so much unspoken hurts.

After praying, I went to the SC (shopping center, not Supreme Court) to have some lunch all by my lonesome. Rodic’s was full so I went to another place, one that served Kimchi. On the chair I chose to sit in, I saw an envelope with the words in pentel pen “JAE SONG”.

(insert musical score from the Twilight Zone here)

Now, it’s a place that serves kimchi right? So the envelope was probably left by a Korean student, one of many peppering the UP campus (and indeed, the Philippine archipelago, hehe). But hey, after all the malas I’ve been through and the bad hand of cards I’ve been getting, I deserve to read it any way I choose to. Chaka kung chaka. I channeled Paolo Coelho, and believed with all my faghag-heart that it was the cosmos telling me, not necessarily that if I want something bad enough the universe will conspire to get it for me (chaks! hindi totoo yan!! boo!), but that I must find my song, my Jae song.

I still don’t know what the Jae song is, but Wildflower has always been the song that I thought best describes me.



  1. Oh Jae… I’m sure you already have a song playing inside you as I’m sure it will sing more loudly soon. ๐Ÿ™‚ [Galeng ha, finding that envelope. Probably your guardian angel also giving you a “pssst, you’re not alone”]

    I was in UP this weekend and would have wanted to eat at Rodic’s or the beach house. We ended up having lunch in Chocolate Kiss which we really missed also. Hehe.

    Take care, dear! ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. oh yes, chocolate kiss and the refillable iced tea. brings back a lot of memories. we would go there when we were in feeling-mayaman mode. or for comfort food after a bad recit.hehe. ๐Ÿ™‚ thanks yen yen! you take care too. mwah!

  3. duda ko pangalan yung “jae song”. song is a fairly common korean name right? like park.

    pero corny ang interpretation ko so go and find the appropriate song for you pa rin ๐Ÿ™‚

  4. jae, i suggest na ituring mong “Jae Song” itong “Hindi Ako Iiyak” na originally sung by the “Flippers”:

    Kapeng aking tinitimpla
    Lagi ngayong lumalamig
    Di ko malaman kung kulang sa tamis
    Tasang walang kibo sa ‘ki’y nakatitig
    Ako’t siya’y naghihintay
    Masagi ng iyong bibig

    Buhok na mahaba, iniingat-ingatan mo
    Noong isang linggo’y pinaputulan mo ito
    Marahil ay pagod lamang ang aking isipan
    At di ko napansin at hindi tinutulan


    Huwag kang mag-alala, di ako iiyak
    Di magdaramdam kahit na ga-patak
    Pag-ibig na minsan na nating dinanas
    Sa tulad kong putik, tama na at sapat

    Pintong dati-rati’y bukas sa aking pagdating
    Ngayo’y nakasara at panangga sa hangin
    Kung ako ay dumalaw at ito ay katukin
    Kahit mahina pa, sana ay ‘yong sagutin

    Kay linis ng silid, walang nakakalat
    Medyas at sigarilyo’y walang naghahanap
    Sanggol na nasanay, nasanay sa ama
    Ngayo’y natutulog kahit nag-iisa

    (Repeat Chorus)

    p.s. This song was later remade by an 80s-era lady singer (i forgot her name) and was re-titled “Putik” (bagay din sayo yung version na yun!) ๐Ÿ™‚

  5. sobrang comforting nga ang UP Chapel.lalo na pag life, everything breaks between, we take comfort in ice cream and life songs.

    p.s. natawa ako sa comment ni jill pero posible nga na pangalan un.haha

  6. wait! so what was in the envelope??? hehe anlabo ko, I know ๐Ÿ™‚

  7. jill – yes, im sure na pangalan yun. kaya nga i bothered to mention that i was in a korean eatery and there are a lot of koreans in UP. :p

    taroogs – eerhm, di kita maintindihan. hehe.

    golda – naks, ang galing. “in life, everything breaks between, we take comfort in ice cream and life songs.” ๐Ÿ™‚

    claudette – binigay ko sa counter. kasi di naman akin yun, so hindi ko binuksan. hindi malabo. itatanong ko din yun. harhar.

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